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I don’t think there’s anything wrong with striving for growth and wanting to be the best you can be.
I just realized that not being good yet at a skill, is not in any way related to my worth as a person.
On one of those days when my schedule was packed with a long list of to-do, articles I wanted to read, skills I wanted to learn, I realized: “What am I doing all these for?”
On the surface, I was growing my skills and knowledge. But deep within, I was trying to fill a feeling of not being enough.
That awareness, and the constant reminder to myself that I am already enough, that these skills cannot add anything to my self-worth, made things so much easier.
I have Pema Chodron to thank for this realization.
“We already have everything we need. There is no need for self-improvement. All these trips that we lay on ourselves . . . never touched our basic wealth. They are like clouds that temporarily block the sun. But all the time our warmth and brilliance are right here. This is who we really are. We are one blink of an eye away from being fully awake.”
~ Pema Chodron, Start Where You Are
At first I struggled to understand this quote. Still, I tried to live from that place.
What if, all this time, I had already been enough? There is no need for the credentials, the fancy toys, there is no need to reach a particular set of achievements to finally be able to say: I am good enough. I am worthy enough.
What if, all we have to do, is have faith in that brilliance within us, and uncover all that hinders our light?
There’s a really huge difference between uncovering your brilliance and acquiring something outside of you (achievements, recognition, wealth) just to feel you are good enough.
May you and I always remember that while our futures may feel uncertain, our self-worth has always been the same . . . and has remained untouched by everything that has happened to us.