This blog started as I was rebuilding my life. I wanted to share, and somehow document, my crazy, frustrating, fun, confusing, exhausting journey. This inner journey is an exploration–I really do not know how to start over. So I’m making small experiments, this blog included.
I wanted to share what had helped me get back on my feet, what keeps me moving forward. What captures my interest these days. So often I would be citing articles and blogs, movies and books, that either made me happy or made me wise (or both). Sometimes I talk about activities (or the lack of it) that helped me, lifestyle changes I am making. Everything that worked for me. Everything that helped. Every grain of wisdom I have picked up along the way.
One of my favorite quotes was from Rainer Maria Rilke’s Letters to a Young Poet. He advised:
I want to beg you, as much as I can, dear sir, to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.
I am really trying to live the questions. I don’t know if I am doing it right. But I can honestly say that at this point, something within is telling me that I am (finally) gradually finding my way.
I hope you find, or create, yours as well.